A commenter on this blog referred to the "awful silence" that we're sometimes confronted with when seeking guidance from the Universe. I'm sure you've been there: things are abysmal, you reach out to your Higher Power, and there's nothing. No message, no hint that things will improve. Nothing.
Saint John of the Cross wrote a poem about the journey of the soul from the body, to a union with God, and called it "Dark Night of the Soul." It describes the fear and pain that comes from spiritual growth, when you're dangling over the abyss. The journey is full of risk, because there's no guarantees.
You're looking for a reason why _____ has happened. Or, you're looking for some sign to point you in the right direction. When there's thunderous silence in response, it can make you question everything. Welcome to your dark night of the soul, whether or not you believe in God.
I'm not going to pretend that I have the inside track on why this happens. I don't. I suppose I can say it's all part or the "learning process," but sometimes that process is so harsh that it seems unfair. Is there really no gentler way to learn and grow? Regardless, it's happened to me at various times, and my personal opinion is (and this really is just my opinion):
- the blind spot around what's happening is part of someone else's karma/evolutionary path (if the issue involves another person) OR
- I'm not meant to know why this is happening
Both of these approaches involve giving up the control of figuring it out. Because there are times when you will never figure it out. Sometimes you don't have to know, you just have to keep moving forward, one step at a time. Focus on your health, your well-being, your spiritual growth (if that's important to you) even if someone you love or hate is part of the equation.
What's the astrology of this dark night? It varies, but I'd say Pisces/Neptune is a top contender. Neptune transits and progressions (especially the oppositions and squares) dissolve what you know, and replace it with confusion. This can involve transiting/progressed Neptune, or an outer planet transit to your natal/progressed Neptune. Or, your Progressed Moon in Pisces.
There's rarely a clear path forward, and it seems like a cruel joke; the planet/sign representing belief and spirituality makes you question if these things are even valid. With the other heavy transits (Pluto, Uranus and Saturn) you know when something's taken away/denied, that your task is to let go and roll with the changes. The more you fight what's happening, the worse it will be. But with Neptune/Pisces...where do you go? What do you do? There's nothing solid to hang onto, and you feel helpless.
Hard Pluto transits/progressions are also strong contenders for dark night triggers, despite the knowledge that you just have to let go. Pluto has a habit of zeroing in on what you're most attached to, and yanking it away (if that attachment is limiting your growth).
I'm going to suggest that, as unpleasant as this helpless feeling is, that's exactly what you're supposed to experience. Neptune dissolves the ego, Pluto forces you to evolve by releasing the illusion of control. The test of many Neptune and Pluto transits is how well you function when you have no control, and no clear sign of what's next. If someone else is involved, part of the test is not trying to figure out why it's happening to them. Concentrate on how you are going to deal with this. If you can support them, great. If you need to detach yourself from them, do it. But don't try to live their life by attempting to find reasons why. It's their path, their karma. Keep your attention focused on your path, and this will enable to you to move on from them (if you have to) or be a stronger person so you can help them (if you're able to).
If it's just you, flailing around by yourself, you need to ask yourself what you stand for, and what really matters now, when everything has been stripped away.
What happens to your faith when there's no proof? What happens to your will, when there's no sign ahead of you? All this is meant to turn your attention to your personal belief. Natal Neptune (in your chart) is your conduit to the Universe, whether or not you believe there's a Higher Power. Natal Jupiter is where you get your earthly optimism and hope for the future. When the rug is pulled out from underneath you, I would suggest that you stop looking out there for guidance, and start looking inside yourself. Be your own Higher Power, and eventually you'll reconnect with whatever's out there. If you want to.